" I could just tell him everything about myself. And i never had anybody like that in my life before. It felt like finally i could truly be myself without being ashamed, without being embarrassed. "

just know, im not angry or upset.

only disappointment comes over me, 

just know, were still friends, but just that friends.

just know, i don’t trust a single word anymore.

i miss you.

"warm hugs. easy laughter. big heart. my grandpa."
i love you so much, miss you so much more.
it breaks my heart ill never get your hugs, and i know, i should think you’re in a better place
but I’m sorry I’m selfish some days, and think why can’t i have you here, why can’t cancer go fuck itself.